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Today I got a phone call from my friend in Japan. It was nice to talk with her.

She worrried about me being alone in here..

It is great that there are some people who know that I often feel lonely and weak at heart.



Being independent is admirable maybe, but sometimes to depend is needed.


I have been reading/watching two stories about the middle age women getting married.


One is called "Something's gotta give" a movie.
The main character is a productive, successful playwriter, who has divorced after long marriage. She met her daughter's boyfriend, quaint old guy, who has had a lot of affairs with young women. They met, and fell in love and broke up. She has been like a guy, macho, strong woman. He called her "flinty."

When she noticed she was heartbroken, she continued crying days after days..
like an adolecent girl, who just has been broken by her first love...(Actually she is around fifty or something)


Another story, a book, is called "Remember the Sweet Things." I haven't finished reading this book yet, but it seems a true story about the auther. She has divorced twice, being a single mother herself raising two kids. She has had such a dramas with the two ex-husbands, but she ended up with her boss at her new work place. This woman, too, has been so independent, slipping her femininity..isn't it so nice that she's been keeping track of what her husband has done for her and making a list of it, to give the list on Valentine's day? People tend to remember only what they have done to someone else, or what they have been done most of the time which was annoying to them.


These days, I've been enjoying movies and books in English. The more I read, the more I find in there, new words, new interpretations, new perspectives..


Today I baked bagels but it didn't go well, since I misunderstood Celsius and Fahrenheit...I try another one tomorrow morning.

Good night!