Be yourself

I think to be yourself is the most important thing for life.


You can make a fake smile, a fake comment or fake apprearance.


But at the deep bottom of your heart, you cannot lie.


Thus I didn't come here to make up the good image of myself.

So I always wanna be true to myself.



"The only thing you can do perfectly is being yourself"

Good words I heard today

Finish whatever you decide, even though you were wondering..


After finishing it, you will get something.


If you do something to succeed, you will fail. Do something you enjoy.

The New Semester!

Today the classes started.



This is my fourth semester. I'm feeling much relaxed, even though having some difficult classes.


Maybe now I can make myself understood much more than I could.




I gotta a feeling that this is a new start for another step. Something different.




If I feel relaxed and do not care about how I look, which I used to do and now I think is not the top priority in my life, I'm okay.



I would often lose confidence in myself because I wanted to look better, I guess.



When I simply forget the trivial matters that involve my greed, I can be myself.




Anyway, I wish good luck to you and myself!

Live simple

Happy New Year !!


2010 came yesterday. I was celebrating it at my friend's house.


I visited one of my best friends who pursue her own goal.



It is good to visit somewhere, someone, that are different from my surroundings.



Visiting her and feeling different from usual, I was thinking about the goal for this year.




"Live simple"



It was a really fruitful year last year, but I would think so many things and confuse myself.


How important is it to laugh without any anxiety? Life is in front of me, this moment.


Sometimes it is needed to think about my future, but my future is not the whole of my life.



Maybe this world is composed of some simple rules.





I want to be more friendly to people, thinking about each moment.



Next. Books.

Now I think this is the time for me to make it habit to gain knowledge.


Read more. Talk more. This is my second goal.



I wish this year is more peaceful and people can live in harmony.

"Remember the Sweet Things"

"You are blessed. You are one of the lucky few. Don't be so greedy as to expect more gifts than the ones you have already been given."

Challenger

I just started to chiken out what I actually am going to do...


I don't know if it's going to work out or not.


But whenever I go on the next step, which sometimes look impossible to do, I see what' lacking me.


Of course when the next step is too high or I'm down mentally, I usually get knocked out.

But most of the time I'm a challenger.

"I never get beaten!!"


I'm happy with being a challenger.

But I want to believe myself more, to be honest.


It needs a long curement, maybe.


Oh, I need to get a book habit. I think reading books is the best way to gain knowledge, new words, new pespectives and good practice for reading any academic essays and writing.


We need input. and out put.


Interesting..

headache

Today I got a phone call from my friend in Japan. It was nice to talk with her.

She worrried about me being alone in here..

It is great that there are some people who know that I often feel lonely and weak at heart.



Being independent is admirable maybe, but sometimes to depend is needed.


I have been reading/watching two stories about the middle age women getting married.


One is called "Something's gotta give" a movie.
The main character is a productive, successful playwriter, who has divorced after long marriage. She met her daughter's boyfriend, quaint old guy, who has had a lot of affairs with young women. They met, and fell in love and broke up. She has been like a guy, macho, strong woman. He called her "flinty."

When she noticed she was heartbroken, she continued crying days after days..
like an adolecent girl, who just has been broken by her first love...(Actually she is around fifty or something)


Another story, a book, is called "Remember the Sweet Things." I haven't finished reading this book yet, but it seems a true story about the auther. She has divorced twice, being a single mother herself raising two kids. She has had such a dramas with the two ex-husbands, but she ended up with her boss at her new work place. This woman, too, has been so independent, slipping her femininity..isn't it so nice that she's been keeping track of what her husband has done for her and making a list of it, to give the list on Valentine's day? People tend to remember only what they have done to someone else, or what they have been done most of the time which was annoying to them.


These days, I've been enjoying movies and books in English. The more I read, the more I find in there, new words, new interpretations, new perspectives..


Today I baked bagels but it didn't go well, since I misunderstood Celsius and Fahrenheit...I try another one tomorrow morning.

Good night!