Well, I had a productive day!! So beautiful outside, I lay down on the grass under the cloudless sky with the autumn wind..!! I love fall!!
I was so down yesterday and today, but I came back to be normal, or more than that! Having a rough period is not a disappointing thing, because I can feel happy comparing that depression.
Happiness and unhappiness are measured relatively. But I'd like to keep being happy without big up-and-downs.
Maybe I don't have to worry about anything.
The things happen because they bring about some positive effects.
If I think I just encounter good things, all the things that I encounter turn out to be good things.
One more.
Studying is my duty. I want to make it a habit to study hard. I can do it, if I do.
Another thing.
Someone's words; I'm falling in love with my life.
Smile!!! Thank you!!
:D
I wish tomorrow is gonna be a happier day.
Monday, September 28, 2009
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Slightly different
My favorite words.
"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is not to stop questioning." Maybe it is tiresome to keep asking yourself, "what is the truth?"
I have been asking myself two or three things, depending on how I feel then. But everytime I ask those questions, I change the answers for those. Or the previous answers do not fit in what I feel then.
I don't want to write heavy things on here, so let's change the subjects.
The recent concern is about my lifestyle. I used to hate staying late at night, but I gradually scrape my ultimate...and now I'm used to having little sleep.
I'm in the vicious circle. Stay late. Get hungry. Eat. Sleep. The next day, feel tired and be lazy. Thanks to this, I've been expanding myself physically...
I'm not sure if it's gonna work, but let's try go to bed before the clock ticks the next day, and wake up around 6 or 7 and start studying. Maybe the important thing is to keep the time in track. Be aware that the time passes. Keep focusing and have time for relaxing myself.
Keep motivated.
I had a good day!!:)
Everything is gonna be okay.
"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is not to stop questioning." Maybe it is tiresome to keep asking yourself, "what is the truth?"
I have been asking myself two or three things, depending on how I feel then. But everytime I ask those questions, I change the answers for those. Or the previous answers do not fit in what I feel then.
I don't want to write heavy things on here, so let's change the subjects.
The recent concern is about my lifestyle. I used to hate staying late at night, but I gradually scrape my ultimate...and now I'm used to having little sleep.
I'm in the vicious circle. Stay late. Get hungry. Eat. Sleep. The next day, feel tired and be lazy. Thanks to this, I've been expanding myself physically...
I'm not sure if it's gonna work, but let's try go to bed before the clock ticks the next day, and wake up around 6 or 7 and start studying. Maybe the important thing is to keep the time in track. Be aware that the time passes. Keep focusing and have time for relaxing myself.
Keep motivated.
I had a good day!!:)
Everything is gonna be okay.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Preserve
Yesterday it was such a beautiful day. Finally the autumn came here.
autumn+Friday afternoon+beautidul weather=my favorite
It's been raining for the last several days. Like the weather, my feelings have been going up and down. Yesterday, I skipped the daily practice. I think I should make some rules for my waking time and sleeping time. Since I realized that I can be late at night, the way I study has changed. The concentration does not last. I always get distracted by some notions or chores which I don't have to care about.
To catch up the slacking practices, I've got to study hard today and tomorrow. And discpline myself to keep doing the things.
I wanna make my weekends productive and relaxing... it might be difficult to avoid its conflicting.
So many things to do, but I have to let go of something to catch something else.
And keep it in my mind.
autumn+Friday afternoon+beautidul weather=my favorite
It's been raining for the last several days. Like the weather, my feelings have been going up and down. Yesterday, I skipped the daily practice. I think I should make some rules for my waking time and sleeping time. Since I realized that I can be late at night, the way I study has changed. The concentration does not last. I always get distracted by some notions or chores which I don't have to care about.
To catch up the slacking practices, I've got to study hard today and tomorrow. And discpline myself to keep doing the things.
I wanna make my weekends productive and relaxing... it might be difficult to avoid its conflicting.
So many things to do, but I have to let go of something to catch something else.
And keep it in my mind.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Destination?
Today, I went to Study Abroad Fair, where you can find many programs for studying abroad. I DO wanna go. I mean, I like being here, but I also wanna get out of here.
There were more than 20 booths. Some of them were held by the language departments of this school, some of them by other universities' program, and the others by studying abroad agencies. I took many flyers. Ummmm...it is hard to pick only one program.
England. Australia. New Zealand. Asia. Or the world. But anyway, the things that I do is determined.
Recently, my future goal has been getting clearer and clearer. It is weird, but rather I'm moving toward there, I'm being pulled by some forces. Or it might have been there for a long time. Maybe I didn't notice that has been there.
And I choose not to be sad. I choose to be happy and grateful. I don't lose my negative feelings.
I wanna settle down...I don't know why I've been keeping thinking that long. The reason I started thinking about my future is because of this. To get over it, I'm looking for something bright in the future. I think. Anyway, it's a good chance, isn't it?
I think I'm always given a good chance and people in a right timing. Even if something bad happens, that helps me in some way. It's just a matter of whether I notice it or not.
It is really good to have so many destinations, isn't it??
:)
There were more than 20 booths. Some of them were held by the language departments of this school, some of them by other universities' program, and the others by studying abroad agencies. I took many flyers. Ummmm...it is hard to pick only one program.
England. Australia. New Zealand. Asia. Or the world. But anyway, the things that I do is determined.
Recently, my future goal has been getting clearer and clearer. It is weird, but rather I'm moving toward there, I'm being pulled by some forces. Or it might have been there for a long time. Maybe I didn't notice that has been there.
And I choose not to be sad. I choose to be happy and grateful. I don't lose my negative feelings.
I wanna settle down...I don't know why I've been keeping thinking that long. The reason I started thinking about my future is because of this. To get over it, I'm looking for something bright in the future. I think. Anyway, it's a good chance, isn't it?
I think I'm always given a good chance and people in a right timing. Even if something bad happens, that helps me in some way. It's just a matter of whether I notice it or not.
It is really good to have so many destinations, isn't it??
:)
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
2 and half years...
It is getting chilly.
Probably the autumn is coming. I love the fall. I love leaves turning red or yellow, and with the clear blue sky highlighting, it's gonna be so beautiful. Well, it's a little bit sad that I no longer can hang around outside.
I went to one of meetings which was held by an organization trying to have an activity associated with global organization, such as Red Cross or Human Habitat. That organization really interested me. As long as I have time, I'd like to participate in it actively. I didn't know that more than 24 million people are slaves in the world, which is more than 100 years ago. It might be a matter of the ratio though.
But anyway, what the president said to us remained in my heart. "College is where you learn." I passed the Japanese test that credits my language requirement, so I can graduate from here within 2 and half years!! That kind of scares me. Just 2 and half years? I would get thown away into the mature, complicated, and chaostic society? I'd get paid, but I'll have a responsibility for my job, and I am also responsible for my life. The food. The living. These are not the only things to be considered. I'll also finish studying!! Does it sound cool?? Yeah, partly, but I cannot study in class. Even if I get inerested in some subject, I have to study it on my own. I'm interested in German modern history, Latin, psychology, that kind of stuff. I mean, if I'm really interested in those, I should study by myself. but...
It's all my responsibility.
I think I rely too much on school. Thanks, my old schools and teachers. I'll teach myself 2 and half years later...
2 and half years.
So I decided to experience as much as I can here, at college, not only the study, but also something important as an independent person, like socializing or knowing better about myself.
It should be so short. The college is where you learn. (Throughout the life, you continue learning, I guess.)
The western sky at the sunset was so beautiful and red. It was like the clouds were holding the redness of the sky as if something were burning out there. I wanted to take a picture of it, but I didn't have a camara, and by then I went back home, it's already got dark. I should have a camera with me all the time!
:P
Probably the autumn is coming. I love the fall. I love leaves turning red or yellow, and with the clear blue sky highlighting, it's gonna be so beautiful. Well, it's a little bit sad that I no longer can hang around outside.
I went to one of meetings which was held by an organization trying to have an activity associated with global organization, such as Red Cross or Human Habitat. That organization really interested me. As long as I have time, I'd like to participate in it actively. I didn't know that more than 24 million people are slaves in the world, which is more than 100 years ago. It might be a matter of the ratio though.
But anyway, what the president said to us remained in my heart. "College is where you learn." I passed the Japanese test that credits my language requirement, so I can graduate from here within 2 and half years!! That kind of scares me. Just 2 and half years? I would get thown away into the mature, complicated, and chaostic society? I'd get paid, but I'll have a responsibility for my job, and I am also responsible for my life. The food. The living. These are not the only things to be considered. I'll also finish studying!! Does it sound cool?? Yeah, partly, but I cannot study in class. Even if I get inerested in some subject, I have to study it on my own. I'm interested in German modern history, Latin, psychology, that kind of stuff. I mean, if I'm really interested in those, I should study by myself. but...
It's all my responsibility.
I think I rely too much on school. Thanks, my old schools and teachers. I'll teach myself 2 and half years later...
2 and half years.
So I decided to experience as much as I can here, at college, not only the study, but also something important as an independent person, like socializing or knowing better about myself.
It should be so short. The college is where you learn. (Throughout the life, you continue learning, I guess.)
The western sky at the sunset was so beautiful and red. It was like the clouds were holding the redness of the sky as if something were burning out there. I wanted to take a picture of it, but I didn't have a camara, and by then I went back home, it's already got dark. I should have a camera with me all the time!
:P
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
First...
I suddenly came up with having my own blog. Even I was busy with my study tonight, and I really don't like stay late at night...Actually I have a bunch of stuff to do!!
Strange to say, I don't know what to write here. haha. It sometimes happens to me. Whenever I'm not in there, I wanna do something. When I am in class, I do think I have to study for the class at home and I'm so enthusiastic about that. But After I go back home, it goes away somewhere. Easy to get bored. Or easy to get distracted.
Anyway, I have been sitting at the desk for more than 4 hours, but the actual time I study for was...manybe two hours? Since I have a laptop just in front of me, it attracts me a lot. I study, but sometimes my mind is not there. Out of sudden, an idea comes up to me, and it forces me to search something in the Internet.
My goal: to make my room where I have to study. To keep motivated. Don't forget the things I came up with five days ago.
I think I just should stop here today, and go back to study...
Just writing English frees stress.
Today was a good day! Smile:)
Strange to say, I don't know what to write here. haha. It sometimes happens to me. Whenever I'm not in there, I wanna do something. When I am in class, I do think I have to study for the class at home and I'm so enthusiastic about that. But After I go back home, it goes away somewhere. Easy to get bored. Or easy to get distracted.
Anyway, I have been sitting at the desk for more than 4 hours, but the actual time I study for was...manybe two hours? Since I have a laptop just in front of me, it attracts me a lot. I study, but sometimes my mind is not there. Out of sudden, an idea comes up to me, and it forces me to search something in the Internet.
My goal: to make my room where I have to study. To keep motivated. Don't forget the things I came up with five days ago.
I think I just should stop here today, and go back to study...
Just writing English frees stress.
Today was a good day! Smile:)
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